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And this is EXACTLY what happens when im SICK and TIRED of THE HUMAN RACE,in general. Quite frankly,I DONT GIVE A SHIT THAT I HAVE FUCKING TRIALS THE NEXT FUCKING DAY. Fuck it,i havent been doing much studying for the weekend, anyway. So what-ehvs,peeps. Im so bloody agitated right now i can't seem to focus on just one thing. NOT GOOD. Especially since i have to STUDY therefore I NEED my freaking FOCUS, thankyouverymuch.
Geez, I"m actually keeping my fingers crossed for a freaking GENOCIDE. I'm even looking forward to 2012. I quite sincerely hope that all the bloody idiots of the world would be WIPED OUT leaving the rest of us Mango People some PEACE OF MIND.
I'm so sick of:
1. being nice to people when they COULDN'T EVEN CARE LESS.
WHY have i ACTUALLY bothered to smile and/or wave at some familiar faces when all they ever do is mostly IGNORE ME. SERIOUSLY??? WHAT GIVES??? WHAT IS THE FREAKING POINT OF EVEN TRYING TO BE NICE TO EVERYONE WHEN THEY ARE JUST SOOOOOOOOOO ADAMANT ON BEING PIG-FACED BASTARDS??? FUCK I would be a WHOLE LOT HAPPIER if i were an INTROVERT. If I can respect you when you smile at me,
why can't you.
Yes, I admit that i don't always acknowledge people but i would NEVER ignore a person who is somewhat familiar to me. Unless i REALLY8 did not notice. If i have ever done that, I'm sorry to whoever it may concern. I hate feeling like a GODDAMNED IDIOT. It feels so DEGRADING to the little pride that I actually hold on to. I can pretend i don't care, but in reality i do. I sooo do.
2. selfish, two-faced fuckers who think of their selves and their selves ONLY.
what is WITH you people??? Even to the people you CLAIM to be your peeps you turn you back against them? Why can't you actually care for YOUR friends? Some friend you are, huh? And why do people only give me things when they want something in return and yet being so bold faced about it? Geez.
3. people giving me any form of reminders of my past a.k.a sk. rendah.
Just when you think you can escape from that Godforsaken Hell Hole, if can't seem to fully let go of you, huh? Its no secret that i HATED my younger days and the mental torture of it was worse. Even at such tender age people could be such two-faced bitches. One of the lowest points was when I was thrust into the harsh reality of knowing someone I had no ill feelings towards actually hated my guts for Godknowswhat reasons. =.= It felt like I'd been punched in the guts and left writhing in pain on the harsh, cold ground. To this date I can't let go of it. Every time I saw That Person(I had to last year. Thankfully, my eyeballs were spared this year.) I'd feel a fresh wave of subdued fury. Yes, I do actually hold on to grudges. I'm not one to forgive and forget THAT all easily. So much so, that my own mother had actually questioned me many times as to why I'm so "venomous", as she says it. Well, meet the King of all King Cobras, then. =) I don't actually have that many happy memories of said place. The odd thing is that one of my closest and dearest friend used to be one that I had no particular liking towards. I'm quite pleased to say that I've never been happier to be so wrong about a person. ,Leonie I Love You. You Rock So Freaking Much. And I'm suddenly missing you like mad this particular moment. Granny dearest, I'm sending you a virtual hug right this very moment. =) Smile ok!! I miss tickling you, singing random songs in class with you(even though we quite possibly sound like kataks singing for the rain to fall XPPP), ranting to each other bout stupid people, giving giant teeth-y smiles at each other for no particular reason, taking lotsa8 pics with your wifey, watching you attack your Nasi Pattaya, laughing at you and Jia Ying when she bullies you, smelling your Leonie-esque smell when hugging you, sounding like perverts when we say stuff like "Leonie, you smell nice.", "OMG, next victim! smells damn good!XPPP", your slow rate of reaction, when I explain something to you and you just give me the blur face and when I ask why you give such cute answers, I can roll on the ground laughing my ass off like, "Sorry, Gup. Distracted! You smell nice!" (case in point, last exams when things weren't too good with you and mommy, you said the same line when I was TRYING in vain to explain Mod. Maths to you.ROFL) and your much, much, muchiness!!XDDDDDDDDDDD
4. having to pretend I'm happy when I'm not.
If I'm so obviously not in the mood, can't you just get the message and EMPHATISE that I. NEED. TIME. ALONE. FOR. JUST. A. WHILE. When you get all emo that I'm not myself, it doesn't actually mean that it helps. Its just means I'm going to have to fake it JUST to make you happy.
5. people hinting unpleasant things.
If you ALREADY don't trust me, JUST SAY SO. Yeah, it'll be like a slap in the face but hey, I'LL GET OVER IT. If you can't seem to find it in you to trust me then why call in for favours from me?? If you ALREADY think that I'm not going to help you WHY BOTHER ASKING ME IN THE FIRST PLACE. Why is it that you are so close to the people around me I end up trusting you even if i hadn't liked you that all much in the past for no reason other than it was just fun to argue with you but I had never not liked you to the extent that I wanted to see you blown up to bits. Superficial non-liking. Period. I don't actually have a problem with you!! And I've pretty much stopped arguing with you anyway!
6. too much change.
I LIKE change. But too much in such short time just bites. When I'm not mentally prepared to accept things I tend to crash and burn. Why is time moving so quickly? I want to kick that sandman in the balls. SLOW DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Too little time, too much to squeeze in. GAAAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BANGS HEAD ON WALL MULTIPLE TIMES*
drops to the floor, face down*
rolls left*
rolls right*
rolls left*
rolls right*
stops*
breathes*
bangs head on floor multiple times*
rolls over*
pulls a fucked-up face*
shows the Finger of Glory from each hand to the world*
hence, FTW.
Conclusion is, I'm risking my ass just to rant. Smart, eh? Looks like I've got my priorities in check.